2003-12-20 - 10:57 p.m.

How can he not see how his behaviour hurts me? He was gone 8 hours to watch a basketball game and not once did he call to check to make sure I was okay. I HAD SURGERY TWO DAYS AGO! It was bad enough that he didn't answer his cell when I called. It was even worse that Marc didn't answer his when I called that one to see if they were still together.

This isn't the first time he's done this, and it's too soon for him to pull this shit again. Twice within weeks of each other really upsets me and hurts my feelings. And tomorrow? Tomorrow we're supposed to go to a family function but I think I'm going to bail. I can't even put pants on without pain, what makes him think I can handle a couple of hours in the car and another sitting around talking?

I went to bed at 8:30 and cried a bit. Not once did he come check on me. When he finally did come to bed around 9, he immediately began snoring-something I will NOT put up with when I'm upset with him, not at all. I got up, grabbed my pillows and came out to the couch and attempted to get comfortable there. When I woke up at 10:30, I could still hear him snoring back there. Am I wrong to not want to be near him when he's like this? He was gone all day and when he came home made no offering of dinner whatsoever. In fact, he heated up a gas station burrito he'd bought a few nights ago and ate that and when I asked him if that was dinner, he responded "I don't know".

He won't look at me, and if he says sorry I feel like throwing the word back into his face like a slap. If he was sorry, he wouldn't do this shit. If he was sorry, he would have called before going someplace else once the game was over. If he was sorry, he would have thought about someone other than himself for a change and checked on me. It's a damn good thing I didn't need anything today-my mother was at work and dad was sleeping and he wasn't answering his cell and I can't drive while on the vicoprofen.

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